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Sunday, August 06, 2006

Have you ever had something happen that with every heartbeat it's like the memory pulses through your brain?
Heartbeat. Memory flash. Heartbeat. Memory flash.
It's like you can feel the memory pulse through you with every beat, no escape.

Today was a mix of this and a horrible day. First, the front passenger window of my car broke. Then after that, on my way to Target, traffic backed up and there was a bunch of cars stopped in the middle of an intersection at a red light. Next a fireman started yelling at everyone to pull into the parking lot of an Olive Garden. Apparently a bus caught on fire, probably due to the heat. I spent the next 30 mins with no a/c in crazy traffic. On the way home another accident happened right in front of me, literally. It was 3 cars and I had to slam on my breaks to not become the 4th. My mother yelled at me for being in a bad mood and then I got sick.
On top of the basic bad day things, my heart and my mind are conflicted. Heartbeat. Flash. Heartbeat. Flash. I can't stop it and I hate to run away from people. I don't have it in me to walk away from someone who just let me in again after a year, or from someone who needs me daily, or just from someone who is always in my thoughts.
I need to sort this out. I need perspective.

Alysa [ 12:53 AM ]

2 Comments:

Im sorry today was so terrible. I really hope that tomorrow is better and that you can take the rest of the day to collect your thoughts and think through everything.

Also..if you need to walk away for awhile..I can understand..just let me know first, please.

By Anonymous, at 8:59 PM
Huge hugs, Alysa;
I hope things were better today. xo

By Anonymous, at 7:06 PM