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Aly. 21. Las Vegas, Nevada. Dreamer, schemer, and make believer. I'm everything you know and everything you can't understand. I'm full of contradictions and misconceptions. I love without holding back and can change your life if you let me. Never underestimate me because that will be your biggest mistake. Myspace Flickr

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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

What would it take for you to just leave with me?
Not tryin' to sound conceited but me and you were meant to be
You're a sexy guy, I'm a nice girl
Let's turn this dance floor into our own little nasty world

Boys, sometimes a girl just needs one

Alysa [ 3:23 PM ] | 0 comments

Monday, March 28, 2005

I am so out of shape that it's sad. I just did 20 mins on a treadmill and I think I might die. Then again it wasn't just walking or something it was running..on a constantly increasing incline. Maybe the treadmill programmer thing was a bit overshooting the abilities of my age group.
Time for crunches.

Alysa [ 11:56 AM ] | 0 comments

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Alysa [ 10:23 PM ] | 0 comments

Monday, March 21, 2005

This girl I know needs some shelter
She don't believe anyone can help her
She's doing so much harm, doing so much damage
But you don't want to get involved
You tell her she can manage
And you can't change the way she feels
But you could put your arms around her

I know you want to live yourself
But could you forgive yourself
If you left her just the way
You found her

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

You're a boy and i'm a girl
But you know you can lean on me
And I don't have no fear
I'll take on any man here
Who says that's not the way it should be

Alysa [ 5:26 PM ] | 0 comments

How do endings end up as beginnings?

I can break your walls down if you let me.
If you let me I can make your world better.
Open up and let me.
Please.

Soup time!

Alysa [ 3:05 PM ] | 0 comments

Saturday, March 19, 2005

I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
And my tears are turning into time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over

Tell me that it's over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that its over
Don't tell me that its over..

Alysa [ 9:51 PM ] | 0 comments

Friday, March 18, 2005

moon laser

Alysa [ 3:58 PM ] | 0 comments

Little Gamers

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Thursday, March 17, 2005

Sleeping awake and awake when I'm sleeping
I've got a dry kinda thirst when drenched
On sunny days all I can see is the shadow
And I'm not above being under
And I'm at the brink though I know that I'm empty
And I always hide when its my turn to seek
My only believe is not to have faith in believing
Before I begin I'm over

Disconnected
Broken off again
And I'm only not lonely when I'm lonely by myself
Disconnected
Numb in the pain again I always back track forward
Cuz all in all I'm Disconnected

Quietly loud while I'm noisily silent
Keep holding my breath when I'm trying to breathe
Swimming against all of my waves and the rapids
I only win when I'm losing

Disconnected
Broken off again
And I'm only not lonely when I'm lonely by myself
Disconnected
Numb in the pain again I always back track forward
Cuz all in all I'm Disconnected

I just wanna live my life sedated
Cuz I love driving myself away
Disfunctionally sane don't give a damn
I cant comprehend what I understand
Disconnected

Numb in the pain again I always back track forward
Cuz all in all I'm Disconnected
Broken off again
And I'm only not lonely when I'm lonely by myself
Numb in the pain again I always back track forward
Cuz all in all I'm Disconnected

Alysa [ 11:02 PM ] | 0 comments

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

The Edge of Innovation

Alysa [ 4:17 PM ] | 1 comments

"I'm not evil. I'm just cute but psycho :) It's my adorable factor that draws you in and then I attack with my schemes to make you eat chocolate and watch crappy TV shows!"

Oh and Happy Birthday babe.

Alysa [ 4:02 PM ] | 0 comments

The mayor of Crowely along with other political leaders are de la Houssaye's. It may be silly but I find that fun. So now not only am I related to duchesses but a mayor and a movie star as well. My family history rocks :)

Alysa [ 1:46 PM ] | 0 comments

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

MSNBC - Girl, 14, says she helped father commit suicide

Alysa [ 4:56 PM ] | 0 comments

In a moment, everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute, all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing
And take control?

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
Cause it's your time
Time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something, when there's nothing left
And the world's feeling hollow

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing
And take control?

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
Cause it's your time
Time to fly

And when you're down and feel alone
Just wanna run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else

In a moment, everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute, all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try

Fly
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
Cause it's your time
Time to fly

In a moment, everything can change

Alysa [ 3:25 PM ] | 0 comments

Monday, March 14, 2005

Hey baby come round
Keep holding me down
And I'll be keeping you up tonight.

The four letter word got stuck in my head
The dirtiest word that I've ever said
It's making me feel alright.

For what it's worth I love you
And what is worse I really do
Oh what is worse I'm gonna run run run
'Till the sweetness gets to you
And what is worse I love you!

Hey please baby come back
There'll be no more loving attack
And I'll be keeping it cool tonight.

The four letter word is out of my head
Come on around get back in my bed
Keep making me feel alright.

For what it's worth I like you
And what is worse I really do
Things have been worse
And we had fun fun fun
'Till I said I love you
And what is worse I really do!

For what it's worth I love you
And what is worse I really do.
Oh

For what it's worth I love you
And what is worse I really do.
Oh

For what it's worth I love you
And what is worse I really do....

Alysa [ 7:08 PM ] | 0 comments

Sunday, March 13, 2005

I left kisses on your front stoop
So you could find them on your way home
And wear them at a party where I'd be your guest
With your soul spinning langfuidly in the warmth
of your chest

You try to remember the sparkle in my eyes
I try to forget the shit and the lies

So here's your December
My kisses in a box
Eat them for dinner
and put them in your sauce

I told secrets to your bedspred
So it could wrap you in it's sonnet
And whisper my longings to the back of your hair
And tell you my story as if i was still there

You try to remember the sparkles in my eyes
I try to forget the shit and the lies

So here's your December
My kisses in a box
Eat them for dinner
and put them in your sauce

Alysa [ 10:44 PM ] | 0 comments

You break me- I want my peices badly
You take me- I want myself back madly
You fight me- I want a nice peace tready
You light me- I want the darkness completely

Tape my wing down
Hold my blue toe to the ground
Take my senses
But you can't take my license to thrill

You can't mold me- I'll take the clay and make a snake
You can't hold me- I can't be anything that's fake
take my life
But don't take my license to thrill

I wonder- why I ever bothered
You can't see- I've been plenty fathered
And sometimes- I can see straight through your blue eyes
You're so blind- you can't see when someone else crys

Tape my wing down
Hold my blue toe to the ground
Take my senses
But you can't take my license to thrill

I guess it's not so bad
You gaurd me and hold my hand
You just can't strip away
My quirkiness today
I guess it's not so bad
It's not so bad

Alysa [ 10:35 PM ] | 0 comments

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Take the quiz: "what kind of drug are you? (includes pictures)"

cocaine.
you are cocaine. addictive, expensive and confident.

Alysa [ 9:31 PM ] | 0 comments

Friday, March 11, 2005

I want to find a piece of your mind
I want to see your make believe
I don't wanna try so hard I make it hard for you to breathe

jump into the ocean
leaving on a notion
if you're caught up in the motion
back track and do it again
and if you make it up
I could never get enough
me and you together
but you gotta tell me where to begin

I forgot how awesome that song is.

Alysa [ 4:11 PM ] | 0 comments

Hey little girl with the pressure of the world on your shoulders don't say that it's over. I heard your prayers so just cast your cares and I'll be there so don't you fear.

Alysa [ 2:05 PM ] | 0 comments

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Daniel: Wait, is this tea? This isn't tea. Omg, I think I'm going to throw up.
Me:hahahahahahah...what is it?
Daniel: I don't know but it smells like a stink bomb.
Me: ahahaha ew

Alysa [ 3:53 PM ] | 0 comments

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

I realize you're behind me to help and human kind me.

I love that.

Alysa [ 3:36 PM ] | 0 comments

This morning one of my hands down fave Gilmore Girl episodes was on. That's where the wallow thing comes from. :)

"I consider you so expendable. You might as well pack your bags and go. I don't need you my whole world revolves around me, inflate my ego."----THAT IS STUCK IN MY HEAD AND IT WON'T GO AWAY!!!

♥♥

postscript:
I want you to want me so bad that the second I walk through the door you attack me. Me and my cookie monster undies.

Alysa [ 12:41 PM ] | 0 comments

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

I'm not Your average type Of girl
I'm gonna show The world
The strength in me That sometimes they can't see
I'm about to Switch my style
And soon things may get wild
But I will prove I can conquer anything

So from my head to toe
I'm taking full control
I'll make it on my own
This time
Better watch me shine

Better watch out
Going for the knockout
And I won't stop
Till I'm on top now
Not gonna give up
Until I get what's mine
Better check that
I'm about to upset
And I'm glad now
So you better step back
I'm taking over
So watch me shine

So Get ready Here I come
Until the job is done
No time to waste There's nothing stopping me
Oh But you don't hear me though
So now it's time to show
I'll prove I'm gonna be The best I can be

So from my head to toe
My mind body and soul
I'm taking full control
This time

Better watch out Going for the knockout
And I won't stop Till I'm on top now
Not gonna give up Until I get what's mine
Better check that I'm about to upset
And I'm glad now So you better step back
I'm taking over
So watch me shine

Bet you don't think
I can take it
But my mind and body
Are strong
Bet you don't think
I can make it
It won't take long
Bet you don't think
I can take it
But my mind and body
Are strong
Bet you don't think
I can make it
It won't take long

Now watch me shine...

Alysa [ 2:25 PM ] | 0 comments

Monday, March 07, 2005

I am now a mime. I can't talk because well for one my voice is all but gone and it hurts when I try to talk above a whisper. All I have heard today is god you sound horrible! It's like yes thank you that totally helps me feel better.
It's outrageously unfair that my mom is at home, simply because she is depressed and doesn't want to work today, and I am sick & have no voice but I have to be here because my boss has it in for me and will fire me if I miss anymore days. I don't fully grasp how that makes sense.

Have you ever promised yourself something? Been raised and told time and time again to not do this one thing? Then one day out of the blue you find that you let that one thing happen, you slipped up. My mother raised me to only be dependent on myself and god, what happened to that? Where did all my independence and strength go to? It's scary when all you have known changes. Even yourself and how you see things gets flipped upside down. To add to the scary...I don't want the old me back.

Alysa [ 12:26 PM ] | 0 comments

I found myself wrong again
Staring out my window
Wondering what it is I should have said
I found myself at home again
Waiting for the after call
The fallout that feels like such a mess

Ohhhh I can only be myself
I'm sorry that's hell for you

Heyyy so what's my damage today
Don't let me get in your way
Let it out like you always do
The trouble between me and you
Is nothing new

So I listen to you complain and then
I bite my tongue in vain again
As I let it all just slowly settle in
Such a pretty picture that you paint
I'm so vile while you're a saint
Funny how your eyes see thick not thin

Ohhhh I can only be myself
You're lookin for someone else

Heyyy so what's my damage today
Don't let me get in your way
Let it out like you always do
The trouble between me and you
Is nothing new

You know how to give it but you can't take it
It's all just a waste now you can save it
No matter what I do
Is never good enough, never good enough

Heyyy so what's my damage today
Don't let me get in your way
Let it out like you always do
The trouble between me and you
Is nothing new
Is nothing new

Save your breath cause here comes the truth
I'm over the drama of you
And that's something new

I'm staring out my window
Wondering what it is I should have said

Alysa [ 12:22 PM ] | 2 comments

Thursday, March 03, 2005

interesting

Alysa [ 1:54 PM ] | 0 comments

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened
And you never will if
You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours
Till I'm sure what I want
But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way

Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no
Why can't you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said...
Oh, my God

Please take it easy it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes
That you've listed so far
Oh baby let me explain something
It's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking the and not a lot else
It seems I've stepped over lines
You've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out
Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

Alysa [ 8:29 PM ] | 0 comments

Notes to self:

write more
dance again
stretch
read lots again
laugh, let people make me laugh
be honest, open, trusting..Talk more

Alysa [ 1:33 PM ] | 0 comments