the dumbing down of love

The Girl

Aly. 21. Las Vegas, Nevada. Dreamer, schemer, and make believer. I'm everything you know and everything you can't understand. I'm full of contradictions and misconceptions. I love without holding back and can change your life if you let me. Never underestimate me because that will be your biggest mistake. Myspace Flickr

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Sunday, July 30, 2006

Alysa [ 12:37 AM ] | 1 comments

Friday, July 28, 2006

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Monday, July 24, 2006

I decided to write today. A random moment of overwhelming emotions and thoughts turn into this. I think I might actually like it.

catching up with myself
sipping tea that tastes like dreams
lyrics dancing in my mind
spinning around and dancing free
finding bits of myself
scattered in others songs
then piecing it together into something new
remembering how to lose someone
learning who I am now
a girl on the verge, on the verge of everything
letting people from my past catch me in the present
and show me my possible future
closing my eyes when the tears start to sting
sipping tea that tastes like dreams
catching up with myself

Any thoughts?

Alysa [ 10:04 PM ] | 2 comments

Saturday, July 22, 2006

I cut my hair today, It's a LOT shorter, and I love it but it's so different than it was. It's fun though, I needed a change :)

Alysa [ 7:56 PM ] | 1 comments

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Let it die and get out of my mind
We don't see eye to eye
Or hear ear to ear

Don't you wish that we could forget that kiss
And see this for what it is
That we're not in love

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start

It was hard to tell just how I felt
To not recognize myself
I started to fade away

And after all it won't take long to fall in love
Now I know what I don't want
I learned that with you

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart

Alysa [ 8:21 PM ] | 1 comments

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

Alysa [ 2:59 PM ] | 0 comments

Sunday, July 16, 2006

You don't know me
Like you knew me
You stopped listening
The moment that I needed you the most

You can't see me
Like you saw me
Truth comes easy
But it's hard for you to pull me from the ground

So I scream, scream cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worse
There's no way back
And what if there was
You'd still be you and
I'd still need to say goodbye

Maybe you don't
Love me
Like I love you baby
Cause the broken in you doesn't make me run

There is beauty
In the dark side
I'm not frightened
Without it I could never feel the sun

So I scream, scream cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worse
There's no way back
And what if there was
You'd still be you and
I'd still need to say goodbye

Nothing will change no matter what you say
I'm still gonna be the same
The harder we try
The harder that we fight
Can't get it right

So I scream, scream cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worse
There's no way back
And what if there was
You'd still be you and
I'd still need to say goodbye

Just say goodbye
Say goodbye

Today is really really hard. The days to come don't promise to be any easier.

Alysa [ 3:00 PM ] | 1 comments

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Sunday dress hangin' on the bedroom door
Empty bottle of wine on the hardwood floor
Last night he said she was the one
Oh, but men and mascara always run

Did I give my love too soon or wait too long
Did I take it a little too easy
Or put it on too strong
She was lookin' for love he was lookin' for fun
Yeah, men and mascara always run

She ain't getting any younger
It wasn't supposed to be this way
Starin' in a mirror with little black rivers runnin' down her face

Tomorrow's gonna be a brand new day
She'll wake up in the mornin' and wash it all away
Last night he said she was the one
Oh, but men and mascara always run

Yeah, men and mascara always run.

Alysa [ 6:12 PM ] | 0 comments

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Hand out the window
Floatin' on air
Just a flip of the wrist
I'd be wavin' you goodbye

Drive past the lifeguard stand
Where I sit around waiting for you to remember
Well past the beach hotels
Where the girls are getting' bronzed on their monogrammed towels

I drive this ocean road
And I remember

How the girls could turn to ghosts before your eyes
And the very dreams that led to them are keeping them from dying
And how the grace with which she walked into your life
Will stay with you in your steps
Paced with you a while
So long, so long

The speaker in this door is blown
So nothing sounds quite right
And I drive this ocean road
And remember
The small of your back
And the nape of your neck
And the soft way you'd hold me in the night

I remember

How the girls can turn to ghosts before your eyes
And the very dreams that led to them are keeping them from dying
And how the grace with which she walked into your life
Will stay with you in your steps
Pace with you a while
So long, so long...

And I will leave under the cover
Of summer's kiss upon the sky
Like the storm face of your lover
Just before she says goodbye
I was thinking that the season could be held between my arms
But just as summer's hold is fleeting
I was here and now I'm gone
I'm gone...

I'm fine, to all of those who are worried. I'm alive, breathing, and staying busy. You know how to get ahold of me. I'm off to chill.

Alysa [ 2:16 PM ] | 2 comments