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Aly. 21. Las Vegas, Nevada. Dreamer, schemer, and make believer. I'm everything you know and everything you can't understand. I'm full of contradictions and misconceptions. I love without holding back and can change your life if you let me. Never underestimate me because that will be your biggest mistake. Myspace Flickr

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Tuesday, November 29, 2005

This is so sad.
Berenstain Bears Author Dies at 82.

Alysa [ 4:11 PM ] | 0 comments

I just did something incredibly daring for me. Now I'm doing what I always do and I'm backtracking and thinking I screwed up and can't do it. I feel sick now and just want to hide. Tell me I'm doing the right thing, tell me I'm ok.

Alysa [ 3:54 PM ] | 1 comments

I want to marry this bag and have many of its babies.

Alysa [ 2:16 PM ] | 0 comments

Sunday, November 27, 2005

A few posts back I wrote about how Laguna Beach star Talan was engaged to Kimberly Stewart [Rod Stewart's daughter]. Well sadly they are no longer engaged. Color me shocked since they decided to take the leap after only two months of dating.

In other Laguna news, Lauren "LC" has a show of her own starting called 'The Hillz'. Kristin is shying away from the MTV crowd as well as her Laguna mates since she apparently landed a role in an upcoming Al Pacino movie. Stephen, Dieter, and the ever so troubled Jason are rooming in L.A. And to everyone's shock, none are in school. Stephen is taking some acting classes, Dieter is working with his charity, and Jason is 'trying to clean up his life'. Now I found some juicy stuff on Mr.'LC', one is that the reason you never saw him in the same car more than once on this past season is because he crashes them like he changes his underwear. Also, in an article that wouldn't name names, I read that one Laguna star has been in and out of rehab for years and that is why they were not in season one. Now this same star also bashed a fellow cast member's head into a wall, my vote is Jason. Him and Lauren are back together after their horrible end on this season, bad Lauren! Also the many year long tiff between LC and Kristin ended after the season wrapped but then became sour again after they both, yet again, hooked up with Stephen. Kristin alienated her right hand gal Alex H., the two shared an apartment for a couple of weeks until Kristin's demands became ridiculous and unrealistic. Alex H. now lives with Alex M. Jessica and the two Alex's are supposedly very active in season 3 of LB.

I'm addicted.
Hi, I am a Laguna Beach addict and I plan to enter rehab with season one on DVD. Maybe I will run into Jason there in rehab and have a hot affair and piss LC off. Life is so exciting for the rich and beautiful.

Alysa [ 10:32 AM ] | 0 comments

Friday, November 25, 2005

So about a year ago I started hearing rumblings of one of my fave series turning into a movie. I was sitting here downloading the new Lindsay Lohan album and some pictures of her came up when she first emerged as that super skinny blonde earlier this year. Now even when I first heard about the Gossip Girl movie, there were talks of Lindsay playing a major role. That kind of pissed me off back then because she was such a red head and had a body. That fit almost none of the characters. Now I've been thinking, when she got the blonde look she is exactly what one would picture as one of the main characters, Serena. I did a little digging and found that the movie IS in the works and the book was adapted for screen by the writer of none other than..GILMORE GIRLS. Now I am so excited it's not even funny. I read this series religiously and have even begun the spin off series "It Girl". Add that to my all time fave show Gilmore Girls and it's almost too good to be true.

Alysa [ 10:52 PM ] | 0 comments

Monday, November 21, 2005

Force of nature
Force of my nature.
A whirlwind,
the heart that I call home.
No one and nothing special,
not now, not if I ever was.
Shattered glass splintering my broken heart.

What he did to me, barbed wire and alcohol.
Erase and rewind. Erase and rewind.
I'm watching lives shatter in Heights.
Scary pains near my hipbones, sharper ones near my heart.
Zapping the air out of my lungs.
I want to cry, I've cried so much my eyes are dry dry.
My heart is screaming and I can't breathe.
Tragic. Broken. Connected. Tormented. Disconnected.
What's wrong with me?

Alysa [ 1:38 AM ] | 1 comments

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Alysa [ 1:00 AM ] | 0 comments

Sunday, November 20, 2005

I heard once that love is friendship on fire.

Alysa [ 11:17 PM ] | 1 comments

Friday, November 18, 2005

SUCK.

i hate the holidays and the added bonus of my birthday falling right smack in the middle is just a cherry on top. i hate this.

Alysa [ 1:16 AM ] | 1 comments

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Kimberly Stewart [yes Rod Stewart's daughter] is engaged to Laguna Beach star Talan. Read more here.

Now as a Laguna Beach addict I had to read this article. I find it so strange that Talan met Kimberly in the first place let alone that they fell head over heals and are now to be married after only 2 months of dating. More power to them tho. Oh and apparenlty..Talan now is releasing an album. He sang on the show this season but I can't say he deserved a record deal. Alex M. did and does. Not Talan tho.

Alysa [ 1:55 PM ] | 0 comments

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

I've lost my mind in wanderlust
my heart cannot be found
My body yearns for the warmth of snow
but the sun keep pouring down
These streets have signs that point somewhere
but there I don't belong
And there's no more useTo curl your hair
When your innocence is gone

Alysa [ 9:52 PM ] | 0 comments

I'm undecided about you again
I can be right that you're not here
It's double sided 'cause I ruined it all
But also saved myself
by never believing you dear

Everything good I deem too good to be true
Everything else is just a bore
Everything I have to look forward to
Has a pretty painful and very imposing before

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

I have too been playing with fifty-two cards
Just 'cause I play so far from my vest
Whatever I've got, I've got no reason to guard
What could I do but spend my best

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

And after waiting, fighting patiently on my knees
All the other stuff tired itself out first, not me
And in its wake appeared the touch and call of a different breed
One of the steps is getting wise and got me there and then got me

And what a thing to know what could be instead
Oh what a blessed curse to see
Took the agenda from its place in my bed
Made a merry paramour of me

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it

Alysa [ 6:08 PM ] | 0 comments

damn gilmore girl episodes making me cry!!

Alysa [ 4:59 PM ] | 0 comments

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

A paticular Gilmore Girl episode has me in tears. If you don't watch the show, ignore this post because you won't know what i am talking about.

The one where Luke and Lorelai break up over her not mentioning drinking with Christopher. She can't get out of bed for days, Rory takes care of her, and then she calls Luke. Thats where my tears start, Lorelai leaves a message mentioning the movie the way we were and saying she needs her best friend. After she calls she freaks and doesn't want him to hear the message, but he does and runs to her side. I relate to this more than most. I just want my best friend by my side, nothing romantic, just the comfort.

I love this show.

Alysa [ 4:18 PM ] | 0 comments

Monday, November 14, 2005

i'm laying on my couch, the fun of wireless internet. My mind is on more than it should be. I have calls i need to make, not sitting here contemplating this. out of touch. that statement encompasses every feeling i have had in the past week. out of touch. me and myself and everyone i know. out of touch.

Alysa [ 1:51 PM ] | 0 comments

Sunday, November 13, 2005

today has been long and hasn't ended since noon yesterday. It was good tho. on so many levels it was good. i have some of my peace back and i hope you did too. tiffany is happy, we both feel much older for some reason. i want a big bear hug and some ice cream.

Alysa [ 8:13 PM ] | 1 comments

that feeling of any form of comfort is gone. all i think of is....

one more bad thing could kill me...or i could not notice it at all. is my heart beating? i cant feel it. i cant feel you. i cant. i feel sick.

ive learned that people dont worry about you unless they can see the problem. clothing and make up can cover a lot. i asked today if i should go and get food or just be hungry. the response i got was are you trying to control something. nodding was all i could do. the marks on my leg screamed yes. something has to be mine..

there is no point in sleeping..or being awake for that matter. the darkness seems to poke and prod me towards untrue things. its to late to take something...i have to go visit god in the morning.

i told one of the most important people in my life a secret today. they were unhappy to say the least and want to hurt people because of my secret. they cared more than you, all you did was repeat the crime in a different form.

something drastic...always something drastic in the aftermath of you. snip snip snip and possibly some color changes. waves of emotion and then silence.

i hope you choke on what you have done. i hope the words and memories get caught in your throat and make your heart ache.

Alysa [ 4:29 AM ] | 0 comments

I’m waitin’ on the sun to set cause yesterday aint over yet
I started smoking cigaretts there’s nothing else to do I guess
Dusty roads aint made for walking, spinning tires aint made for stoppin’
I’m giving up on love cause love’s given up on me

I gave it everything I had and everything I got was bad
Life aint hard but it’s too long living like some country song
Trade the truth in for a lie, cheating really aint a crime
I’m giving up on love cause love’s given up on me

Forget your high society, I’m soakin’ it in Kerosene
Light ‘em up and watch them burn, teach them what they need to learn HA!
Dirty hands aint made for shakin’, aint a rule that aint worth breakin’
Well I’m giving up on love cause love’s given up on me

Now I don’t hate the one who left You can't hate someone whose dead
He’s out there holding on to someone, I’m holding up my smoking gun
I’ll find somewhere to lay my blame the day she changes her last name
Well I’m giving up on love cause love’s given up on me
Well I’m giving up on love HEY love’s given up on me

Alysa [ 2:13 AM ] | 0 comments

Friday, November 11, 2005

amiannoying.com

who knew such a site existed! you get to go and vote on the hundreds of celebs you have always found annoying. go. try. its much fun.

Alysa [ 3:51 PM ] | 0 comments

your ipod is better than a boyfriend.

go read this, it's so funny..and so true. #15 is my fave :)

Alysa [ 3:39 PM ] | 0 comments

Thursday, November 10, 2005

My skin is like a map
of where my heart has been
And i cant hide the marks
its not a negative thing
So i let my guard down
drop my defences down by my clothes
i'm learning to fall
with no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
so be gentle when u handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can't stratch the surface
without moving me underneath
I bruise easily

I found you fingerprints
on a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
all over this heart of mine too
But if i never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
with no safety net to cushion the blow

Anyone who can touch you
can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
can love you or leave you

So be gentle...
I bruise easily

Alysa [ 6:43 PM ] | 0 comments

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Funny funny.

This article cracked me up. It's so true and the ending about a drinking game..i might actually take that into consideration. go read and giggle.

Alysa [ 4:46 PM ] | 0 comments

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Why on earth would you need a vibrator that can send and receive messages?
technology is getting scary.

Alysa [ 7:12 PM ] | 0 comments

Friday, November 04, 2005

you're becoming my unmentionable.

your dreams kill me.

Alysa [ 12:37 AM ] | 0 comments